what?

what am i doing?!?!? is my resolve so weak? so easily shaken? 
i know now that this is but another challenge in my quest. i was confused, because it felt good, but good or bad it was simply another challenge in my pursuit of ultimate success. i see it clearly now. 
what have i been working for this past 6 years, to let it all go now? 
i havent achieved my goals yet. 
im right on the edge of glory. 
i refuse to throw it all away. 
my resolve is back, and stronger than before. 
my true goal is within sight. 
i cant believe i almost let it go in such a brief period of time. 
that is NOT me. that is not kai, the kai that everyone senses is destined for success. 
that was a kai doomed to a life of MEDIOCRITY. just another freaking normal dude. 
And i am NOT willing to settle for mediocrity. 
The way forward is clear now. 

take my soul, take my heart back.

dont think too much its simple!