Silver lining #2

Deja vu all over again.

Maybe i'll just repost the same post from the last time it happened

Losing an espada isn't always a bad thing, even when its your top espada.

Especially when you have two possible new espadas rising through the ranks. Although there seem to be a few personality differences, I'm optimistic that we can become close friends.

Will we be able to reach TBF (True Best Friend) status? I certainly hope so! There's pretty much nothing to do but to let our personalities do the talking; if we click, we click. If we don't, it just means it wasn't meant to be. After all, at this stage in our lives, it certainly isn't likely that our personalities are going to change anymore

But its better this time. For one, i'm not losing a top espada this time, he only recovered to #3. 

Its still a pity, but every relationship, be it frenship or bgr, is a mutual thing. It takes two hands to clap. And when one stops clapping, the other can't produce any sound. That's just how it goes.

But i reiterate the points i made a few days ago; i'm just relieved this happened at such a high point in my life. That's probably the only reason i'm still feeling this peaceful. I'm also happy for this ex-espada that he also experienced this saga at a pretty high point of his life too. Its the end of an era; but its a peaceful end for both of us.

Besides, this only vacates the spot for my new rising espada Y, V and C! One of them has already made it into #3 after this saga; she was #4 previously. And i have high hopes for C too! The chances are extremely low considering how insanely popular she is, but you never know until you try! With this new abundance of time on my hands, i'll probably give it a shot. Yea; i'm doing what i always do: wanna be besties with me? Hey, honesty is the best policy; thats how i've always played my cards. 

Afterall, beating around the bush aint my style

This whole saga reaffirmed my confidence though. I have definitely changed. At one point in time, i had to consciously control my temper. But as the days go by, i have become that which i wanted to be. In my past posts i had claimed that my temper was my only weakness. i must be perfect now them ;) Afterall, this saga was definitely a big one, and i didnt feel the heat like usual, nor the heartrate increment. Oh wait, sorry, i cant say "like usual" anymore. Now its me in the past. Seems i have evolved again, and this was the affirmation of that fact. I was always worried that in the future i would be unable to hold my temper in important times, like when i am debating with a superior, for instance. Now, i know for sure that i can.

I have grown up

PS: To the ex-espada; if you're reading this: I wish you all the best as well. (Unlike yours mine isn't sarcastic though lol) I honestly have no hard feelings, its just an event that had to happen. I have my espada coming up, you also have ur own too. My parting words are; from all i have known, it would definitely be a success. Either way, i won't be changing how i handle my relationships. Everything is in black and white for me. I rank; i reward; i share my heart. Espada was something funny for you, but for me it really was an accurate term. But it isn't as cold as you would feel; even aizen trusts ulquiorra with his heart and soul. (Pretty sure they are gay btw)