movies of wisdom

1) Before midnight
2) Blue valentine

I relate alot more to ethan hawke's character than ryan gosling's character, but blue valentine is just so much real, with a truly sad ending rather than before midnight's cheesy make up session.


I have always been a helpless romantic. I chose the words very carefully there. Helpless is because i feel my feelings too strongly. I fall hard. Real hard.

The problem is, while i am the same from start to end, girls usually aren't. I have always been the same. Its not that I am insanely steadfast or have great discipline or some cheesy crap like that.

The simple reason is that I have nothing to hide. I never have. I make friends easily because what you see is what i am. i'm not hiding anything to impress anyone. thats not my style. possibly i would be different if i met obama or something but lets face it, you are not obama. 99.99999% of the people i meet aren't obama. my sincerity shines through and people can feel it. they can tell that this is what he is.

but the girls i date aren't like me. they hide the truth. you can sense it. they get crazier and crazier. they play games. i don't play games. my pickup line is hey, i like you. literally. how many guys do you know that have the balls to pull that off? i don't play stupid games, if i like you, you are going to know it. otherwise, you are going to be my friend, and lucky you because i am a great friend. i'm the fking one who is going to bail u out when shit really gets down.

and if they can't even hide it when we are dating, when she hasn't even locked me in yet, can you imagine how crazy they will get when they are home free? when you have kids and you are locked in for life?

even the ones that are skillful enough to hide it until you are married. there will always be those. i haven't met my match yet but i have no doubt someone will come along and pull complete wool over my eyes. I have always been extremely intuitive, but i wouldn't trust my intuition when it is blurred by my feelings. Not of love, mind. Of attraction. that is the dangerous one, the big daddy.

test them. always test them. get a troublesome dog, whatever.

don't have kids until u are 100% certain. I'm not going to end up like ethan hawke and ryan gosling. I'm not going to get tricked into a loveless marriage.

I want a perfect, beautiful marriage and create a perfect family. Because I know that's what i am destined for. But if i get suckered by the wrong chick just because she's hot and cunning, i will never get that. There is nothing quite as deceptive as attraction and infatuation.

"Love" is the ultimate con.

Race hard for my career.

But take it slow for my love life.

Those are the keys to my life.