rehab and motivation

maybe i overdid it, but i didnt want to give my mind any inkling of doubt. i wanted to piss off the kid so much he would be going for blood next year. with that in mind during my rehab, there will be no holding back. positive motivation from your family, frens and most importantly my new teammates,  is what gets you through in the long run, but for each and every session of gruelling rehab, theres nothing that gets me going like negative motivation. thats what got me from the bottom 1 percentile in jc academically to the top 1 percentile in uni. i will be collecting motivation for then next 2 weeks, to get me through the next 9 months.

but how quickly the world forgets. kobe lamented this, and now i see it. but its over for him now. but it isnt for me. i will dominate the street courts of singapore again. the world may have forgotten, but i havent. and i want it back. i dont blame them. i am a complete shell of my prime.

i want it back.

there is nothing positive about this injury, but if i were forced to come up with one, it would be the development of my team play. i would never have become such a good facilitator if i had my old athleticsm for the past three years. how could i? i was unstoppable. for one year after i worked on my game tirelessly, i was completely unstoppable. why would i need to move off the ball? why would i need to do anything but stand at the top of the key and demand the ball? wow, it must have really sucked to play on my team. thats all different now. completely different. watching every single nba game of the season might have helped also. but i understand how to play the game properly now.

even when i return, i wont be an iso player anymore. unless im switched onto a big, den its dinner time. my teammates have been carrying me for so long, both defensively and offensively. its time for repayment. i will make every session the best time they ever had. i will have my speed back, and the knowhow for how to do it. and we will dominate together.

I know, i know, i'm a team player now.
I know, i know, statistically players returning from an acl rarely perform at 100% again
I know, i know, even if i can, i shouldn't, i should play it safe, there's only so many times you can tear your ligaments

but even so, i cant help...
just once more
let me be aomine again
let me remember how good it feels
just now and then
i won't ask for too much
i just want to feel it occasionally again...