7 years

Its been 7 years since i was last in love. 7 long years.

I'm not a besotted teenager. At 25 years of age, I know the difference between love and infatuation, love and a simple crush.

Its been 7 years since i last felt this way.

And being so happy while i feel such strong feelings? Never in my life before.

It feels like... the only way to describe it is wild happiness. Wild happiness exploding from my heart and its so strong than i'm affecting everyone around me. I'm like a carebear now spreading the joy and love. There is a permanent smile affixed to my face.

Its happiness. Pure and untainted.

The purest kind of love.

When i saw her for the first time, we were both on the phone. Her back was facing me, and as she turned, amongst a sea of people, it was as though it was in slow motion; it was as though the two of us were the only ones in the entire area, crowded as it was.

Do you believe in love at first sight? I didn't.

Now i do.

I knew it from our first date. Every moment during our 2nd date. Every moment from our 3rd date and every moment since.

She's my ideal girl. She's Hyori combined with Hong Jin Young. No, she's better than both of them, combined. She's perfect.

When she smiles at me, my heart skips a beat. When she teases me, i laugh with true joy. When our skin accidentally makes contact, it feels like a jolt of electricity, but it is warm and soothing, enveloping your whole body and giving you strength.

In my entire life, the only things that were ever important to me were my parents and my career. I didn't believe in love. I believed, once, and had my heart torn to shreds. It took years to recover from. I never believed i would find true love; i devoted myself to my work, believing that i would end up with a model/actress trophy wife. My career was the most important thing to me.

Now, she is the most important thing to me. I know that without a doubt. I would do anything just to see her smile; when she releases a peal of laughter i feel i might explode from joy.

She is my happiness.

The chemistry is amazing. If i believed in soul mates, she would be the one. I've never had someone fit so perfectly with me, like pieces of a puzzle.

I realize there are risks with love. My heart is completely vulnerable to her now, more vulnerable than I've ever let myself be. She alone has the power to completely destroy my heart; break it into a million pieces. Will she? I honestly don't know.

But I don't care. I trust her with all my heart. I've never been the type to hold back out of fear of something. Everyone who knows me knows that when i give, i give 100%. I never ever hold anything back. When she sent me the message she replied to another guy who was wooing her, I knew she had me. We weren't a couple yet, so the pureness of the message really overcame me.

"Sorry, I think I found someone that I really want to be with"

It is the most beautiful sentence I've ever seen in my life. I couldn't stop smiling after that. I went into a complete zone in my work after that. I've been in a zone before, out of hatred. I've also been in a zone out of passion. This is the first time i've been in a love-inspired zone. And it was a whole different level. If i were to give a speech or presentation, it would be the best speech anyone in the history of the world ever gave. If i were to pitch to a client or investor, it would be a surefire deal right on the spot.

Even if one day my heart is broken, i don't care. I will love her with all of my heart, because I believe she is my soulmate. Even if one day my heart is broken, it doesn't matter. I know one thing for sure.

After dating me, no guy will ever be good enough for her again. That is how much i intend to love her.