Chasing perfection

Kobe claims he doesn't have any friends.
The man is a ridiculously focused, rampaging monster who achieves his goals by any means necessary.
A century ago, he would be conquering countries with maximum bloodshed.

I've always thought I was like that. Perhaps I was, in the past, when I was chasing my goals with something of a mean streak.

I don't do that anymore.
Many people who have experienced my horror in the past would smirk at the thought of me being referred to as a "caring leader" type. That guy? He's a goddamn asshole!

But its true. I have changed. I have grown.
I'm not like Kobe, although I have the same passion for chasing my goals, the same do whatever it takes, the same killer instinct.

But I'm chasing perfection at the same time.
I want my goals while being perfect, or what the society deems as perfection. I agree with society.

Being a gentle and charismatic leader like Magic vs being a dictator-style and demanding leader like Kobe.
Both are winners, but the public loves Magic.

I've always chased perfection.
The change in leadership style is one.
Another is my passion for basketball. Do I really love it? I chuckled a little when I typed that out. Yes, there's no question. Having the ball in my hand is one of the times when I feel truly alive.
Is there another purpose? Yes, excelling at one sport is unquestionably a huge part of being perfect in today's society, which values all-roundedness. I couldn't bear the thought of people thinking I'm a computer geek with no athletic ability; thats probably a huge part of what makes me work on my game.
Music; piano. Yes, it relaxes me. But it also gives me a musical side, another trait the society loves. I'm not an artistic guy; I look at picassos and go wtf is this? The piano has always been the closest I could go in the artistic world.
Eloquence; soft skills. Why would an engineer/programmer take a public speaking class?
Ok actually there are alot of reasons why, so thats kinda a bad question, with some stereotyping involved.
But another big reason is chasing perfection.

I will keep chasing perfection for as long as I live.
No doubt I will allocate different priorities to various skills.
Tech skills>softskills>leadership>>>music
Basketball transcends all; it keeps me sane. Its abit like a guilty pleasure, except its not really guilty cos it keeps me fit.
Gives me this; yet another part of chasing perfection.