A tale of two Semesters

I want to write my review for the sem, i really do

but how am i supposed to write a good one when all i can think about from the past sem is one person?

I've had good profs, bad profs, good mods, fun mods even.

But the past week has just been a tidal wave of emotions.

How different one single person can make.

Lets take a look at my last sem's mood at this time

I still remember it well too; the strange feeling of not wanting the exams to come to an end, because it gave me a sense of focus which i enjoyed. It was a new feeling, a strange feeling, but undoubtedly a positive feeling. It was easy.

This sem is completely different. I feel like, knowledge-wise, i'm nearly on par with last sem, and i'm definitely within reach of another dean's list, but the feeling is completely different. If i hadn't promised myself to get it again this sem, i would probably have given up long ago.

Its hard. Wayyy too hard. It shouldn't be this hard.

The feeling isn't positive. If last sem can be related to the gasping breaths i take while playing bball with a strong opponent; laughing at my body's weakness and having fun all the while, this sem is nothing but a 2.4km IPPT run forced upon me by NS. The gasping is the same, but there are tears in my eyes and the smile is gone.

Either way, it doesn't matter because in the end, my goal is the same. And i always keep my promises no matter what. Regardless of how hard it is, i will achieve my goal this sem. It can't always be fun and games every year.