Until a year ago, i thought i studied hard to get a comfortable life and play comp games when i retire.

This is the first hols when i have all the time in the world; i have a chance to play games if i want.

And i chose real life.

Because i know now. The thrill that comp games give you? That's nothing compared to life.

Life is the ultimate game; that's why they call it the game of life.

I've never felt this way before. I've experienced the feeling of wanting to play, but making myself not play.

This is the first time i've had that feeling of not wanting to play, but making myself play. I realised after a few minutes that it wasn't fun, so i stopped.

When was it that i started playing games for others and not myself? Even the soccer games i play with my friends; its not for me any longer.

I know when it was. It was when i started winning the game of life.

Life was the real game, and for once, i'm winning.

It feels good.